Help me please!!! Please!!?

-I'm depressed. My depression started with a major accident of my boyfriend with whom I wanted to marry. After his accident it was revealed that he was on drugs and my parents decided me to marry at once with another guy. I was totally upset, depressed and in non-acceptable stage. My parents married me to another guy. Now I'm married but my marriage isn't great. I wasn't out of my depression and my parents let me married to a guy who is not at all settled. I have tried a lot to make this marriage work bit it seems that it isn't possible. I don't want to do anywork, I'm careless in whatever I'm doing, I cannot speak to people properly over phone. I have told this to my husband that I am in depression and I need counseling, but he is a miser. He says that everything is fine. He things that I'm being careless. We fight a lot on many issues. I once tried to cut my hand. He punched me on my arm when I refused him once. Yesterday, he slapped on so hard that I'm still having pain in my left cheek and ear. I don't know what to do? I can't complain to my parents coz I know that my parents not being so rich will emotionally blackmail me and make me return to my husband. After beating me, my husband slaps himself the same way in a way of apology. I don't know what to do. Does anybody have some free online depression counsellors? Please help me. I'm in great need.Besides the fact that you need emotional help, what you should be doing is finding a way to get away from that guy before he freaking kills you. i get it you're poor and whatnot, but sometimes in life the best decisions aren't always the most glamorous ones. Get away from him then work on you.
Your parents don't have the right to decide on YOUR life and if you can't count on them, you must ask for help from the outside world - a social assistant (if this is the right name in English), a person who helps people in difficult family situation.
Why are you even asking?



This creep is abusing you.



Run! You probably should file charges against him and a restraining order.



Maybe you should stay single for a while.
Divorce his ***. And look over a phonebook for a counsellor, Online ones aren't very trustworthy
Your depression is because of your situation and is not the real issue. Being abused is. No one deserves to be beaten - no one. What your parents think isn't important. What's important is that you take care of yourself and get yourself out of this situation.



Would your parents find it acceptable that your husband beats you? Tell them what's happening and that you need to leave because you're afraid and don't want any more abuse. Tell them that you need their help.



If they wont help you you need to find someone that can. Can you go to the police or your local hospital?